Hanging on (2)

Hanging on to an on-again-and-off-again relationship, the dive trips have become the only times when she got to meet him. She was not ready to call it off for good because the relationship was comfortable. And, she was simply too tired to have to start afresh: "I just don't want to be alone."

I wonder if she realised that more harm would eventually be inflicted on her self-esteem. And, I wonder if she noticed that his gaze often lingered too long on a few of the other women, and friendly pats on the shoulder became a few too many squeezes.

But people do choose to hurt themselves more deeply, rather than deal with the heartbreak sooner, because they would rather not be alone. And perhaps, he did not have the courage to say the words either - words that she should say, if not for him, then for herself.


Hanging on (3)

A careful one-liner a day keeps the girl from running away again? Shrug.

Methinks honesty and some straight talking would have made this hiccup in the friendship easier to bear, if not resolve, but I would not force it, considering how bad it went the first time - for him.


A life too 'ordinary'

Sometimes I wish I could see the world as some people do - how easily and instinctively they find laughter and simple joy in the little things around them, especially the 'ordinary'. When the drudgery of daily living threatens to overwhelm me, I wish I could live this 'ordinary' life as they do theirs. Before I forget. Before I lose myself.